My title owns yours

On my way back from class this morning, I always pass by this "Poolside Cafe" which is like a cafe with a giant swimming pool in front of it. It looks really classy, like the one you see in Havana in Dirty Dancing (maybe I just made up that scene in the movie, truthfully I dont remember.) But, yo it doesnt matter. Anyways, I realized maybe I should get rid of my unwillingness/fear of learning how to swim and go back into water. Ever since that childhood incident*. But I reached that age where it is too late to learn.

Anyways, talking about fear, I don't know about you but my life is filled with them. Especially when I have to stand in front of people. I'm not a public speaker (those of you who heard me give a testimoney in yg 3 to 4 years ago and remember probably know). And when I'm about to go to a meeting and have to shake hands with people, oh do i fear that. I fear shaking their hands because of my hand condition, yes I like to call it a condition. I did not choose these genes, I'm not even sure if it's the genes. My parents sure dont have that problem. If you dont know what I'm talking about, it's a good thing.

Moving on, earlier I went to play basketball and I got a big scratch on my wrist and blood started seeping down my wrist. It's not that bad but when I guarded the person who gave me the cut, I hit his face by accident and after the game I looked at his face and saw bands of blood on his cheek. I was wondering why he had that, then I felt a tingling sensation on my wrist, I looked at it..and chuckled. It's funny how I dont "fear" playing basketball even though it's more dangerous or can be more uncomfortable than giving a presentation.

So what's the point of this blog? It's that I think we were made to fear trivial things and be brave when the really scary things, like disasters, family problems, tragedies hit. It's like the person who created human beings was ingenious enough give people courage when it's crunch time and when life gets tough and hard. Then, when things are going well, people suddenly get moments of nerve wrecking feelings of fear in small trivial things to keep us humble and put us in our place. Maybe it's not the case for you, but I see it alot around me. Man, life is interesting.

How to Jump

This is something I realized today:

Jumping requires explosive energy that our legs produce. The energy is concentrated in the soles of our feet as we use our feet to push up. What I have been doing all these years is making sure I get a firm grip on the floor by planting my feet on the floor before pushing up. However, I did not realize that when I get ready to jump, I plant both the balls of my feet as well as my heels on the floor. When I do that, the energy I exert is absorbed partically by the large area of both the ball and heel. Instead, we should jump with only the balls of our feet in contact with the floor and make sure the amount of contact we have with the floor after the exertion of our legs is kept to a minimum. This way, we decrease the surface area as well as time spent on the floor before jumping. With less area and time, we increase the upward force we generate and this causes us to jump higher while using the same amount of power.

Just thought you guys might find this interesting. Try it at home! You can probably feel the difference.

I'll update more later when I have time

1:54 AM - Topic: Passion - Strong Emotion or Something Else?

Off To Canada

It was a stressful day. From last minute packing to paying for my tuition, I don't feel at peace at all. But then again, how often do our feelings change on a day to day basis. I can't explain how I am doing right now. I can say well but the past weeks alone with nothing to do except to stay home has driven me to the bridge of insanity. This summer was awesome but to end it with such a slump is very disappointing.  I really need God to help me and prepare me for my sophmore year. I look ahead to all the things I need to do in my life and it's a mess. It might not be so bad compared to other people but it's enough to make me wish I can look away. I need to place it in God's hand. I need Him to guide me. Otherwise, I dont think I can make it. I dont think I can do everything I have to do.

Starry nights with no more tears and fights
When were gazing at the bright night sky
Times like this I hate the goodbyes and goodnights
So play the music while we are still alive